Close or not to Close this blog that is the question and the threat if I don't use this app before February 9th 2018. So I am using it. 

Left Behind

2010 was one of the hardest years I had been through in my life,  I thought perhaps raising a child on my own would top the list of things I've endured in my lifetime. I have been through a large number of ups and down through out my life that you would think by now I would be used to it, but you never get used to set-backs and disappointments, you dread them like the plague and wish you where never born to go through it all, but the toughest is yet to come.

 At the end of August my almost 3 years of being back in Tennessee will finally be over with, but it doesn't really end there, it continues on, for at this point and time I find that after all I have endured and thinking that things will go great, I find that they really aren't going to go well for me the way I had hoped they would. I will be at the end of August be on my own, without a home, or a job, yes I will be sent packing, the house will be closed up, the man I was a live-in caregiver has been re-located to California to live in a long-term care home, I on the other hand will not be so lucky, and what comes to mind is this, for the almost 3years I have been here I have felt alone, hardly anyone called to see how I was, only on a rare occasion was I in contact with any of my friends, some I have known for over 30 years, even bothered but only twice to contact me, and that was via Skype, I tried to keep in-touch with them but found that they weren't to concerned about how I was or what affects this had on me, they really just wanted to go on with their lives, in fact one of them said that since you've been back there it's almost as if you had died, I just don't think about you that much, WOW anyone hear the slap in the face?

I really thought that I was cared about more than I thought I was, but it just seem to be the opposite. So at the end of August I will indeed find myself living out of a backpack somewhere still in the state of Tennessee. At that point I will have lost everything, the dogs, bird, and all my belongings I had hope to hang onto until I found a job and could move into my own place, but without a job, you cannot pay for things. Not to mention what affect this will have on my son, who is living in Oregon.

I didn't know what forum to post this on, FaceBook, or here and I chose here, because I felt that after all these years that the bloggers I got to know over time would be supportive even though I have only met a few of you in person.

I do not know what tomorrow will bring, and I have prayed till my heads falling off.

Thanks for listening, or reading this, it's not the full story, but you get the jest.

French Dome Cathedral

It's been awhile since my last post here and I thought what better time to share with those still in BlogLand then this time of year. I do come to my blog from time to time just to see who is still around and who has left the blogging community and I am so happy when I see a lot of the people I got to know from the beginning of my blogs. 

Christmas time for some is a time of reflection of the year and to be happy and joyful with our family and friends and for some it's a tragic time. Not everyone celebrates or wishes to celebrate this Holiday and that's okay, for some it brings back sadness and loneliness, it could be a anniversary of someone's death or the reminder that loved ones are gone or you're away from home and no one around to celebrate the holiday with, I think we all need to reflect on the joy this season brings us and extend that joy to someone in need or to contact someone we have not seen or spoken to for perhaps months or years, this is a time to put aside any hard feelings. 

With the busyness of this time of year we forget to stop and think about those without jobs or those with families that are struggling to cope, put yourself in there shoes for a moment and think about how it would be to not be able to celebrate this season or be able to give your loved ones a small gift, it would be hard wouldn't it? 

So in closing I ask you to reflect, share and think of others. 

Have a Happy Holiday Season

Merry Christmas 

and Goodwill towards others.

Still In The Land of The Living

I know, I know it's been a bit since I posted here on my blog. For anyone interested, Yes, I am still around. I pop in occasionally and check in on a few blogs from time to time too. I have noticed a lot of changes with Blogger since I was last here. It's like learning all over again how to even post this.
So, anyway, I am still in Tennessee where I am still a caregiver to a friends dad that had a stroke in 2010. But hopefully my time here is drawing to a close. I don't wish to remain here much longer. Being a full-time caregiver is a thankless job from my point of view, mainly because the man that I'm here for is very ungrateful that he's still alive, is able to still live in his home with his pets, and go out to be with friend three times a week. But angry that someone remains living here full-time with him. He is experiencing the early signs of Dementia and it isn't easy.
As for myself I am occupying my time here with an online College course in Criminal Justice, with the hope someday I will become a Paralegal. I have till June 2013 to complete my Associates Degree, so I do have something that keeps be busy.
For my son, he's still attending the University of Southern Oregon, in Ashland and is really enjoying living there. His plan is to Graduate in 2013 with a Bachelors Degree in Physic's.
My two little poodles are still in California with a friend, she has her hands full with them and two other dogs and twelve cats. I miss them terribly and want to see them.
So in closing I wish everyone good health and thanks for stopping by occasionally.

It's Been Eons And I Wanted To Share Something

Hello strangers. Yes, it is me. I've been away for so long and felt it time to come back for a brief moment and say hello to everyone in Blog Land.


I thought I'd share something with all of you. There are times in our lives when we believe and it is mostly a cynical point of few that there are not many kind people left in the world that truly appreciate you.

I've been for the last 7 months in a caregiver position for a friends father that suffered a stroke back in August 2010. It's not been an easy position to be in, since he does not appreciate me being here etc.... But his family does and that's where the kindness comes into play with my story.

I've know my friend for 22 years now and met nearly everyone in her family with the exception of her youngest brother. When I came back to Tennessee to start the caregiver position for them I met him. It was a brief encounter and he was leaving to go back home in a few days so I never got to know him well, until January, when he came back for 7 weeks to do some work. After leaving we have spoken almost daily to share what his dad is doing and how well. While he was here he noticed I was having trouble with my laptop and he offered to have it fixed if I decided I wanted to. I told him no, I was willing to put up with it and we left it at that.

Well to my surprise, he decided to do one better for me and purchase a new laptop for me. I was taken back by this kindness, I am not use to having someone wanting to do this for me and I told him it was not necessary, but he insisted that I have a new one, it was his way of saying thank you for putting up with their father, because his father is not a very easy man to put up with.

He truly is a very nice guy, now I know why I never met her brother before. She was saving the best for last.

7 Years To This Day

Maxine

My mother died this day 7 years ago. Sometimes you get caught up in everyday life and you forget about the ones you love. You go on, but you can't forget. This morning is different for me because of where my life is today. Some, say you are were you are in life because it's meant to be. I don't always buy that reasoning.

For what it's worth today, I wish I were back in California to be around the people I love and have been around when times were tough.

My mother always smiled when you walked in the door, and always greeted you with a good morning, or good afternoon, and good evening when she answered the phone. I miss our talks when I needed to tell someone, how I was feeling. That is one thing that you miss, is calling her and telling her your day or just to say hello and see how she's doing. 

It's a day of remembrance for me and if the weather holds and doesn't rain anymore today, I'll be out walking for you today mom.

I love you momma.

Announcing !!!!

http://selldirecttoyou.blogspot.com/

This is an experiment of selling some of my things, that are in storage.

My first item is a Silverplated  Salad Serving Set. WM.A Rogers AA, that comes with Tarnish Sleeve, that has additional slots for other pieces.


Tell me what you think.

I did this before I knew I could be going out of state. I am now in Tennessee for 2 months taking care of a friends father that had a stroke in August. So, I am sorry if your interested in this and will not be able to do any transactions etc...... I still have the pieces but their in storage and it's in Calif. and I am here. But thanks to those that were interested and inquired about them. 

Son Off To College

Perhaps you have seen his picture on my righthand sidebar. My son Ricky, is now attending Southern Oregon University. It will be the first time he's living away from home.

What's great is I can still see and talk to him with the use of "Skype. And what a great tool and invention that has become.

He's endured the turmol from the loss of our home and everything else we've been through together.

I have been a single mom most of his life and he's turned out to be a great son.

I wish him luck and success in his studies and in life.


Love you,

MOM

I Could Use Some Prayers

I have a second Interview with a Doctor that I have done a Preliminary interview with a few weeks back.

My request is for prayer. I need this job so badly and it's for only a few days a week, but it's a start. 

I know the blogger community is strong with those that believe in the power of prayer. Please join me in praying for this opportunity to open up for me to get back into the work force.


Thank you all.

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Where Did Everyone Go ?

I remember when I first started blogging. It was by accident really. I was looking at a blog after looking up Romantic Homes. Looking for decorating ideas. I found My Romantic Home, you know it as Cindy's.

Now that I've been away for awhile, and curious about what I've been missing, I see a lot of my favorite blogs have not been blogging all that much, some not for months and some even a year. It's a sad thing. But there are many that still remain and I am happy about that. 

Blogging can be a joy and a curse at the same time. 

Some day I return full force and continue to check in as well.